10/21/08

I just got back from a whiskey rampage at a local pub. Nothing but Hip-Hop music was playing. I fucking hate all Hip-Hop music nowadays. My friend Elvis was there at least giving me some comic relief between songs while i drink. 

I feel nothing.

I don't care, i don't have the fire, the ambition to to go on anymore with the outside world.

I want to be left alone. 

I just want to build a fire in my backyard and fall asleep.

Goodbye Allerigies, Hello Octobercrack.

The Fall is upon us, and i am loving everything about it. I was never one to be called a "Summer" person on the account of my allergies owning my ass for the whole duration of the season. Zyrtec, Allegra, and some supper steroid antihistamine horse pellets; basically puts me in a pharmaceutical haze this past Summer.

Found out i was allergic to Soy and I'm the only Asian i know that is  allergic to fucking Soy Sauce.

Anyway.

The Fall is definitely my favorite time of year, it is about 40 degrees out today (so says the weather widget on my new computer) and i am declaring today the fist day of Jacket weather. I can finally sleep comfortably at night instead of sweating my balls off to sleep. Maybe next Summer i can afford to get central air as opposed to the ghetto central air i have now, where a oscillating fan goes from room to room. 

Another part of the fall i like best is Samuel Adams OCFUCKINGTOBERFEST!!! it is only available for two months, which is good because that would seriously be the bane of my alcoholism turning into a full time gig if it were available year round. I'm not kidding,  this stuff is liquid gold in my eyes (or liver, rather). I am convinced that Jim Koch sneaks a little bit of crack with every batch to make it that special.

A cold pint of of the Octobercrack and a double shot of jack awaits me tonight after work. I can already hear it calling my name.

Summer comes to a close

Today is September 10.2008. Summer is almost over. Well, in my own opinion its already over but the rest of the world as well as Mommy Earth Bitch say sometime in late October. or maybe not that late, i 'm drunk as a motherfucker right now and feel like typing, so i don't know what I'm talking/typing about.

.....where am i going with this?....

Well, anyways.

Summer is over and i just read about my new years resolutions i posted awhile back.



I did get a new car, which i am fucking loving it. SOOOOOOOOOOOO many years i had driven a Nissan P.O.S, that i still to this day i am trying to get over the insouciance's of my everyday driving. Like the way i used to drive without noticing how other drivers would look at me with this sort of look of disdain. I still feel like other people look at me at stop lights and whatnot and just laugh. but now, they look at me with sort of envy, it's a weird new feeling. I have to remind myself that people actually like the way my car looks, as oppose to the the WTF!?! IS THAT GUY DRIVING ? look.



That in itself changes allot for a guy around here.

Materialistic motherfuckers.



I am in the process of actually stopping smoking, because, the Doctors nowadays say its really bad for you. I kinda believe them too.

My friend Davidson is on his third week on the patch and he has some fucked up dreams. Can't really recall them now to the real details he was talking about, but the sheer fact of having vivid dreams like his is appealing enough for me to slap on those sticker fuckers on for awhile. I love to dream. Especially if i can see through the normal hazy shit dreams i have.

Sometimes i wake up in the morning and the only thing i have to look forward to; is when i can go to sleep again to dream anyways.

He gaurantees Mind Blowing dreams. I tried to tell him the dream i had about the old school mythical creatures that i met in the lower fouth demision, where they actually just berated me with advice. One was a lizard like horse with wings named "Rainbow" but i couldn't trust him on anything he would say, on the acoount of his name being.....well,"Rainbow".

Who Would?

He then tells me that he wants to figure out a way to record my dreams to his tivo. Which i belive would be more entertainig televison for all mankind if we could do that sort of thing with one another.

I'll write later, for now, i'm going to take a wild shit and go to bed.

TOOTLES!!!!

UGHHHHH!!!!! Fuckin Cars!!!

There has been allot of changes happening all around me and i feel almost burden with the stress of it all. My car finally died a few weeks past, and i was forced to actually purchase a new one. I am happy about it, its just that i didn't think it was going to be so soon. I was saving money for the past year and half for a decent amount for the initial down payment. I was planning to purchase by January but oh well, i had enough so i can actually get a very low interest loan.

My brother just got Married to a wonderful girl. At first i didn't really like her nor did i particularly hated her either, she was just there.Then she just grew on me, and i love the way my brother and her are together. It solidifies the notion that can love exist between a couple. They were married on their eighth year anniversary at the Riviera in Massapequa. The place was decorated with a beach theme, all the tables were named after a different Long Island beach and as a center piece was a fish bowl with a beta swiming and enjoying the party. How i love those fish.For the cocktail hour they hired a regae band to play which set the mood for the night.. My brother kept it a secret from everybody about thier wedding song being "Is this Love" by Bob Marley. Deffinately an original choice of a song; it was cute watching them dance to it.

Most of the guest have gotten rooms at the Huntington Hilton as well as myself. Around 3A.M, i wake up with this sharp pain shooting out of my left eye. It fucking hurt so bad i ran out of the room in my underwear still drunk but now just really angry and in pain. I was on the mission to find some drugs. I go down to the lobby covering my eye because the throbbing pain felt like the eye itself was going to burst out of my skull, i ask the receptionist behind the counter where they sell aspirin. He just looks at the hot mess that was me and magically slides three individually packs of Tylenol across the counter. In the excitement of the future relief i wanted o say Thank You, but its most likely sounded more like YAHHARRRRR!!

Next wedding I'm in, I'll be sure to bring a big ol' bottle of Advil.

Memorial Day

Today is a day of relaxing and really doing nothing and i couldn't be happier. My little cousin asked me if it was in fact Memorial day today, i assured her it was and proceeded to tell her the significance of the holiday by saying it was day we take off from work/school to remember the last of the unicorns. Her being unsure of my explanation and considering i just maybe lying to her, i then solidified my point by asking if she ever seen a unicorn. When she answered with the obvious "no" i simply told her "see what i mean, now why don't you take some time out in a quite place and ponder on that thought"

I love fucking with little childrens view on reality.

And i'm back.

It has been awhile since i been here, like it matters anyways. Usually when i tell people that i have a blog the conversation goes as is:

"You have a blog?"
"Yeah man, its Bukowskiwasright.blogspot.com"
"Bukow..what?"
"BUKOWSKI!" Charles bukowski, he was a poet, a writer and renown drunk of L.A?
"So...he's like a writer?"
"Yeah"
" is it like bukake?"
" FORGET IT! YOU ARE NOT MY FRIEND!"

So here i am just writing just to write to myself, and i couldn't really be any happier. I need to practice regardless. Plus, i spell like a gorilla and need to actually work on that.

Lately i have been sick ever since i came back from New Orleans. I blame Karma really. On the returning flight back i was sorta.. kinda.. laughing at the passengers in front of me that were screaming during a little turbulence from the decent to land in Lagurdia. So fuck me in the gonads for laughing, i like the turbulance. I like the feeling of the danger aproaching an almost certain death. Honestly, i almost screamed WHOOO!! HOOO!! that shit is fun to me. It was mean being amused by other peoples fears and i truely belive karma is paying me back by giving me a Upper respitory infection for it. So, were even karma ya hear me!! I am sorry.

Life Thus Far

I'm still here just been a little busy with everything. I will blog more as soon as can find the proper amount of time to compile all the material i have for this. Maybe tomorrow.

So don't worry all the people who read this. All one of you that is......I think.